Friday, July 21, 2006
i guess i have gotten my answers again
n this is the umpteen time i am gonna say i think i have gotten the answer i was waiting for.
i was just a person who needs reasons for every actions.
so i guess this time the action tallied with the reason.
u do not want to lead me on.
u should have done that long ago.
u shld nv have done whatever u had done.
i am haunted by it every now and then.
so i guess i was right that u nv did like me.
i was just a substitute for the moment.
lol.
should i smile cos i have gotten the answer and the so called closure i think i shld be receiving by now?
or shld i cry cos i feel darn played n cheated?
or shld i be angry cos of everything that i had gone thru?
shld i feel relieved that its all over?
truely what should i do?
all i know is that i am feeling numb right now.
may be cos it came a little direct n sudden from the mouth of another person instead of u?
i dunno what exactly shld i feel right now.
but i m sure i will definitely get the feeling of hangover tmr morning.
hah.
so i guess subconsciously i was right all this while.
n i tried to prevent it from taking place but i nv succeeded.
i questioned u if u were sure u actually liked me.
i told u, i was not the person u were ilw cos the rightful person was already right beside u.
i asked u, not to do things that u feel weird doing.
i stressed so many times asked so many times.
u reassured me too.
u even told me i exceeded the line of just normal friends.
hah LIES.
my
stupidity, naiveness, gullibilityprobably u just like the feeling of being loved huh.
HAH.
