Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I think I have lost control of my life.
I dunno what I want. And there are certain things that are not right for me, but I am so tempted to give in to temptation.
and just live life with not much consideration.
I am tired.
do you understand what I am going through?
do you think its right to judge me for that?
do you know the pain I had experience that made me who i am [not] today?
someone, hit me if need be, to wake me up from my stupor.
Monday, January 18, 2010
I just felt like posting something up first be I head for bed.
something, anything.
Was deeply demoralised by what my music teacher said.
You are not the dancing material.
that was quite hurtful especially after all the hard work i put into.
skipping lecture, taking cab down, spending long draining hours at my music school for almost 5 days a week.
And what i got in return were those words.
i realise, i am losing myself, living life increasingly carelessly.
give me a hand,
pull me up back into safe hands.
Saturday, January 02, 2010
I no longer know who I can turn to for help.
The inherent drama in my life is making me so tired of confronting all biased judgements, sweeping accusations, unreasonable perceptions people have of me.
The old me would have been extremely affected by the malicious rumor people spread of him and would fight so hard to debunk it and clear his name.
But time has made me realised that whatever I can do is crippled by people's stubborn and judgmental nature.
People choose to believe what they believe and not how true in reality the accusations are.
Seriously name me something i have done that you guys think is of malicious and self-serving intent.
Have I intentionally inflicted pain in anyone?
Am I seriously as complicated as you people choose to believe i am?
What have I done to deserve your cruel scrutiny and being your perpetual conversation topic?
Tell me.
