Thursday, July 20, 2006
now i feel so distant from u.
as if u wanna stay away from me and have as minimal contact as possible.
but i guess i cant blame u
cos i was the one who began distanting myself first.
i guess we humans are a bunch of weird living creatures that roam this earth.
despite the fact that we are complicated enough being multicellular, we must have such a complex mind.
which i nv seem to be able to control it fully.
what am i actually feeling? what am i actually thinking?
What do i actually want?
argh.
what should i do?
i treasure this friendship.
but is it really just this pure friendship that i am actually yearning for?
or is it something more?
or do i just want answers, to find a closure?
the pending frustrations, confusions, temptations are driving me crazy.
i need salvation.
or do i need u?
