Friday, June 11, 2010
a restricted breath
as my heart constricts
a sudden jolt
awakens me from my sleep
an embrace thats too tight for comfort
I struggle with great effort
through the magnifying glass, my flaws are augmented
i feel diminished as a person,
over-mistaken
over-expected
under-understood
under-empathized
the attempts of prevention, of pre-emption are nothing more than redundant,
the predicted, the feared, have already crept in slowly but surely.
gnawing away the edges of trust, acceptance, respect.
the perfect breeding ground for the positive feedback mechanism to be initiated.
initiating somewhat towards an imminent departure.
an imminent end.
i'm restless, i'm drained,
i'm sick, i'm tired
of the cyclical order.
it was a mistake right from the start.
